{"id":74,"date":"2003-11-30T20:12:40","date_gmt":"2003-12-01T00:12:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lopeyland.com\/?p=74"},"modified":"2006-06-27T23:22:50","modified_gmt":"2006-06-28T03:22:50","slug":"happy-holidays-i-guess","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lopeyland.com\/?p=74","title":{"rendered":"Happy Holidays, I Guess"},"content":{"rendered":"

Happy Holidays, I Guess<\/strong><\/p>\n

Greetings and salutations. The thanksgiving weekend is over.<\/p>\n

Tidbit number one: we’re having a boy.<\/p>\n

I’ll be posting the ultrasounds pretty soon, but I’m just happy to say that.<\/p>\n

Tidbit number two: I don’t have a job.<\/p>\n

I had a plan and a dream to get a job before Thanksgiving. It didn’t work out that way. I’m still looking, but I hate this process.<\/p>\n

Ultimately, I feel a lot like a failure for not having a job. I mean, we’re going to have a kid in 5 months or so, and I have no way to provide for her. I’ve only had one interview, and I despise the process that is supposed to get more of them. I don’t know if it’s common to feel that way (like a failure), but I do. Even though, as Laureen eloquently put it, “failing to do something doesn’t make you a failure. It just means you didn’t succeed.”<\/p>\n

So I haven’t succeeded and I still don’t feel any better.<\/p>\n

Tidbit number three: getting to sleep at night has been difficult.<\/p>\n

I don’t know whether it’s just been a lot on my mind, or whether it’s medicine related, but I’m not sleeping particularly well.<\/p>\n

Tidbit number four: where do you start when there’s too much to do?<\/p>\n

What is the best advice you have for learning how to plan to get things done? What is the motivation for doing them? I mean, let’s take the entire process of clothes. You wear them, then you have to wash them and dry them. Then, they have to be folded. Then, they have to be put away. For what? You just get to repeat the process. To me, repeating the process doesn’t seem like contentment and happiness, and a lot of daily living is simply repeating processes, over and over again. And it doesn’t feel to me like it’s a winnable situation. Bills, clothes, the kitchen, the house, all of it seems to just be for its own sake rather than for something greater….<\/p>\n

Sigh. I’m philosophizing again. Stop me before I try to prove that black is white and get killed at the next crosswalk.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Happy Holidays, I Guess Greetings and salutations. The thanksgiving weekend is over. Tidbit number one: we’re having a boy. I’ll be posting the ultrasounds pretty soon, but I’m just happy to say that. Tidbit number two: I don’t have a job. I had a plan and a dream to get a job before Thanksgiving. It … <\/p>\n

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