Feeling Better, Then Just Feeling It

If you haven’t stopped by Lopey’s Links yet, you’re missing my sad attempt at making a Fark.com clone with other “somewhat interesting but probably only to me” links. But I’m happy with it, and it keeps me out of trouble.

This is the second week of my weight management/exercise program. It’s interesting. I’m on essentially a 2200 calorie per day diet, divided up into dietary exchanges. I get 12 fats per day. I’m not sure what to think about that right now, but I’ll just roll with it. The exercise is basically treadmill stuff, working until we hit my anaerobic threshold, which right now is 170 beats per minute. Apparently, that’s where my body is most efficient at burning fat. I have a snazzy new heart rate monitor that straps on around my chest every workout and transmits information to my tinfoil hat/watch. All in all, it’s a start to get better about being better.

I think one or two of the things I’ve not done well is ask for help and commit to change. Accountability in my life is a big whopping zero right now, and at least with this program, I’ll do something positive.

I realized I do a lot of praying for other people, but I don’t really pray for myself. I ask God to help other people, but I feel somewhat selfish for asking for it myself. When we say prayers with Jacob, I go “Dear God, thank you for mommy and Jacob and Jessie and Chewie.” Then Jacob will whisper, “and Daddy.”

It just shows that I don’t think about myself, only about my problems or worries.

Well, maybe I can get control over that, too.